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"Who would want to live like this?" he said to the Review-Journal. "I just don't want to die during the operation."
Considering the list of health problems you're currently experiencing that may or may not be related to your condition it seems Death is knocking on the door. The question is do you want to go down fighting?
I knew a man once who said, "Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back." - Maximus (Gladiator)